Daytona Splendor - A Thesis (Part Five)

Listening to: Various Artists - The OC Mix 5

Again, another continuation of the 4 previous posts, and part 5 in what certainly cannot not be described as an interconnected series of posts for each of the 6 OC Mixes. Yipes!

Well, well, well, here we are again.

So, my leading-lady and I began running lines, just the two of us, leading to late-night conversations regarding the genius of The Weakerthans (she was from Winnipeg), and the merits of tossed salad (she was from Winnipeg). Eventually we had a weird little "mutual-liking-confession" conversation, and we briefly held hands. Now, there's two additional side stories at this point, which, again, for the sake of (a) brevity, and (b) my ego, I'll gloss over reallllll quick.

I think I was a nice guy. I respected women, and I seemed pretty safe. Here's the truth: I was an animal. Nay, a hunter. I lived for the hunt, and once I bagged my prey, that was it. I'd mount the head, and wash my hands of the blood. Ugh, yuck, that's a super-sick metaphor. That's so gross. Plus, I am totally ashamed of my behavior at this point in the story. (And for most of my teen-young adult life, as a matter of fact.)

Anyway, the play went really well, which was followed quickly by two similar "mutual-liking-confessions" with two other girls, leaving me with what appeared to be a rather tumultuous situation on my hands. So, after having had coffee meetings with these three wonderful people, I lay in bed at night, mulling over said tumultuous situation. The facts were these:

1. Three girls wanted to start dating me.
2. I wanted to date each of these girls.
3. I shouldn't have been allowed to date any of those girls because I was an incredible dickwad. (I wasn't totally aware of this at that time.)

Now, having three women discuss the possibility of dating you within the span of one week has a way of playing with a guy's mind. Am I a super-attractive hunk? Could I have a harem? Are harems legal? Are the owners of harems afforded any special priveleges at Costco? And so on. (Nah, I never thought those things. Just there for some humor, I suppose.) Anyway, later that month, I had conversations with each of them that effectively ruined any sort of relationship with all of them, because, as it turns out, I was a self-serving bastard. Each recipient of my "Now is not a good time for me" speech took it differently, and each in ways I did not expect. There was the "OK", with tears, the "OK", without tears, and the "Screw You" with and without tears.

Obviously, the weeks and months over which this situation had developed had left me confused, disappointed, and alone. I mean, who goes from having 3 potential girlfriends one week, to zero, all in the span of a week and a half? Now, there is sort of a point to this whole story, though we'll see when we get to the big conclusion whether it was worth it or not. This section of the story, however, was meant to give you some insight into the period of my life during which The OC meant something to me, how I got there, and why it ended up being such a formative time. Also, there were some witty things I put in there, in the hopes of making someone laugh.

The OC Mix 5, which has been the soundtrack to this portion of this wonderful little trip down self-loathing-er, I mean 'memory' lane, is not my favorite. I mentioned it as a tie for the least favorite, but upon further reflection and listening, it is alone as least favorite. There are some good tracks, but there are some duds. Imogen Heap is gorgeous, I always love Stars, and Gorillaz and Rogue Wave make it pretty cool, but the rest are just really not songs I would've chosen, especially considering the source material.

Alright, I'm really looking forward to wrapping this whole thing up next post, and I hope you are too. Although, I hope you're not looking too forward to it, because that would imply that you have not enjoyed yourself to this point, which really just takes a big bite out of the ol' self-esteem.

P.S. Sorry if this post is too self-deprecating at times. Don't feel uncomfortable.



Various Artists - The OC Mix 5 ★★★✩✩✩✩✩✩✩

Favorite Tracks: Publish My Love, Kids With Guns, Your Ex-Lover Is Dead, Hide and Seek
Least Favorite Tracks: Rock & Roll Queen, Wish I Was Dead, Pt. 2

1. Rock & Roll Queen
2. Reason is Treason
3. Wish I Was Dead, Pt. 2
4. Daft Punk Is Playing At My House
5. Publish My Love
6. Forever Young
7. A Requiem for O.M.M.
8. Kids With Guns
9. Na Na Na Na Naah
10. Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
11. California 2005
12. Hide and Seek